As my time here in Jordan comes to an end I am forced to look back and examine what I have learned from my study of Arabic. My experiences here over the past four months have only confirmed the importance of persistence and the beauty of worry. I have learned that over the past few years if you want something in life you need to persistently work towards that goal. My most recent goal was Arabic. I know I could study Arabic my entire life and never feel satisfied with my abilities. But I feel I have reached a benchmark even though the path of Arabic is endless. I accomplished something that in the beginning I truly doubted if I strong enough or smart enough to complete. It's a good feeling to have completed something you thought was impossible.
Struggling to lose weight, getting into BYU, studying Arabic and other trials have taught me not to let hardships affect me negatively. It's OK to worry, in fact it is a necessary part of life . Worry is what drives me forward. It is my motivation but you can't let the worry overcome you. If you worry to much you become bogged down and you won't progress. Too much worry can be debilitating, the right amount can be an impetus. I think we all need a healthy douse of worry to push us forward. If you're not worried about the future why would you do anything to change it?
I have learned that when you are presented with a obstacle, don't freak out. Take a step back, remove your self from the situation and analyze it, find the best way around it and then move forward with faith that things will work out. Because here's the secret, they will.
My sister reminded me of a scripture in 1 Nephi, "the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty . . . " or at least, quietly persistent. It's the combination of being worried and persistent at the same time that leads to success.
I am worried about my future, but that is a good thing.